Turning 30

Do you know that vague, unsettled feeling that creeps in around the edges of everyday life?

Nothing is really wrong exactly but something isn’t working. And, to be honest, it really lies with my own dissatisfaction- with myself.

I’ve been struggling with my weight now since the beginning of 2008- when I gained 50 lbs in less than 3 months after getting the “birth control shot”. And nothing has made all that much of a difference.

On top of that, the last two years the Army has left us in Missouri have not been exactly kind to my health. Apparently, my body is not a fan of the midwest. I’ve dealt with allergies that have increasingly interfered with my ability to function- including sinus pressure migraines that cause nausea and make it difficult to drive.

It’s forced to me to slow down and reduce my obligations because I simply don’t have the energy or emotional resources that I used to.

I’m not sure what my next move will be.

But my 30th year needs to be better than the last one. This unsettled feeling needs to go.